by Regyna Longlank
Image by RLL
No longer affording the luxury of talking to myself
When speaking to others
All parallel conversations aside
Necessitating connection
I am aware when my verbal offerings veer from delineating
Bog down in description
Going in circles repeating what is not heard
Unable to find a new way to say the same old thing
Your eyes glazing over as you nod
Thinking about your sore toe and how soon you can leave
Finished now with the recitation of traits for treats
Longing for real conversation
Not the instructional kind
Or the kind that proves how much you know
Where you went, who you knew, what you did
Who you are holds my attention longer
In the end what I want to know
You told me the day we met
I just didn’t like what you said
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I love the cadence of this piece. I also get a strong impression of what you’re trying to say. You’re very clear. Even though the person you write about has not been.
Lovely poem, Regyna.
I can so relate to the “Going in circles repeating what is not heard
Unable to find a new way to say the same old thing”, and learning at the outset what they are about and just not wanting to let it in.
I have learned the hard way that when I end up going in those kinds of circles, and continuing to try (and fail) to make myself understood, that it is probably really not my own communications abilities that are at fault…
So true. Often I find myself repeating the exact same thing, when I am angry I do it more. It’s as if I haven’t gotten the response I wanted, so I say it again thinking perhaps the person hasn’t heard me. This is not effective. I would like to find a new coping mechanism please, one with earflaps. Thank you.
Even when I’ve found a number of other ways to say it, if it’s still not understood, I have to realize that it’s *not me* who has the problem. I don’t so much repeat the exact same thing, although I do that also. It’s when I’ve varied it multiple ways and they still don’t get it that I have to take that step backwards…
Step backwards? What’s that! Yes, I’m sure you are right. I am so stubborn sometimes. I can see the way I want it to be so clearly the way it really is blurs. If I have the power to create my own reality then that is good…if not then it’s a total waste of time. Depends on what you are working with I suppose. If you are working with gold in the end you can make anything you want out of it and it will be beautiful. If you are working with shit it will always be shit no matter what shape you get it to take.
I guess I’m still convinced that the basic materials are excellent. Of course if they remain unavailable it hardly matters.