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I am being screened for breast cancer. There are calcifications, and dense tissue, and I am being retested. It is probably nothing. I am terrified.
I tend to go to the worst case scenario to alleviate fear. Double mastectomy. I guess that wouldn’t be so bad. It would make ballet easier. I would need new outfits.
It has been fun having a big rack. Going back to an athletic build would be ok. I would prefer not to die however, as I have a kid. And people I like to hang out with. Things to do, places to go. Fires to see.
I’m scared. But I’m ok. Wish me luck. Loving, RLL your dTd
Regyna Longlank
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Thanks to the advances of digital mammography I got my results on the spot. No need for a biopsy, everything appears to be benign. No clusters, the calcifications are diffused. This is apparently a good thing. See, I learned something new. Clusters, unlike in breakfast cereal, when found in the breast are bad. Could be bad. Whatever.
I need to go back in six months so they can keep an eye on things but otherwise the boobies are safe. Nobody panic. I certainly did. I kept it together fairly well until she told me I was ok, and then I started getting all trembly.
Oh, sweet Regyna. <3
I was in that very same place (i.e.calcifications) about 10 years ago. And I too have semi-jumbo tits (depending who you ask…ahahahaha). "IT IS PROBABLY NOTHING." But my harrowing thought processes then were likely similar to the ones you're now having: which are a ginormous waste of time, I discovered later.
FYI, right now, I'm suffering from dead-meat syndrome — meaning I'm really, really tired and sleep is critical to my survival!! But i'll be here to listen and comfort you and tell you that worrying now is as important as whether to warm your Spaghetti-Os in a saucepan or nuke them in the microwave. "IT IS PROBABLY NOTHING." The absolute worst case scenario, as far as I know, is a lumpectomy with some radiation to ensure a clean slate, but there are many steps to follow to get there. Just take one step at a time……if you can contact me through "madeline" please do so. my permission is granted to both of you to make the connection. <3
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oh, i just saw your response at 12:38 — not sure of the time zone, but your results are a sight to behold! WOOT!
My offer still holds, though, missy. Hold your head up and defy the bitch named cancer!
I love you! I’m just now seeing this or I would have been up in your grill girlfriend, holding your hand and sending you LOVE! Call me! Or I’LL CALL YOU…how’s that? I’ll be nice though and wait until you’ve had coffee.
Some genuinely nice stuff on this website. I enjoyed it.