Category Archives: rant

Out to Get Me

Apparently now I am becoming paranoid.  At least that is how it feels.  I used to think everyone thought I was awesome, and the whole world was my cheering section.  Lately I have the definite impression that everyone is out to get me.  I’ve flipped over into the trust no one stance, and since I have a very vivid imagination that is not always a productive way to view the world.

Control is an illusion repeats Benny in the background.  Not that dubstep ever really stays in the background.  He’s right though.  It is an illusion I find it helpful to perpetuate in certain situations.  It helps my state of mind.  It is the lie that gives the truth.  There is a saying for that, probably in Russian.  It escapes me right now, I’m sure Prana would know.    Continue reading

The Twisted Upright House

stained glass by David Long

If you are following the creation of the North Bay CORE Project for Burning Man 2012 then you know the build is on.  The Twisted Upright House is coming together, and all we need now is you.

Our final crowdfunding campaign for CORE is under way.  Please help spread the word and get us fully funded.  We are already getting updates from the artists, the build will soon be happening.  We are so excited to be bringing a burn structure to the playa for Black Rock City 2012.  Be a part of the North Bay CORE project – take home a stained glass panel or a ton of other cool schwag.

When Weeping Willows Dont Weep….

Weeping Willow (1918-19)

Weeping Willow (1918-19) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

by SkyRooster

I’m moved to complete indifference.

I’m not sad ,hurt ,confused, angered, disappointed or scared. My accuser of my emotions has told me as such. “Your irrational” I’ve been told. None of the common human emotions are acceptable apparently. When you have been lied on and to repeatedly, you’re to have no other emotion but perhaps acceptance of the situation.

Betrayal and broken trust is to slide down smoothly like a fine wine. Each day to continue like the next, all the while knowing your character is being presented in a incorrect deceitful manner. Not by some stranger or acquaintance,but by someone whom you’ve loved. By someone who has told you they love you….the accuser of my emotions.  Continue reading

Access to Insanity-Updated

Image by Madeline Laughs

This is an update for the readers of the ongoing chapter posts called Insanity.

Insanity will be opening for Public reading one chapter at a time as edits progress. If you read the original, then the new and updated version will be like reading a whole new story, but still with the twists and turns you enjoyed in the first one. Continue reading

Agendas can be Assholes

Picture of a Card Manipulation

Picture of a Card Manipulation (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

by Madeline Laughs

I was a bit annoyed to figure out recently that I had been manipulated again. How in the world had this happened to me? I’m supposed to be one of the most self aware people around, and yet one more person had an agenda to fulfill and I seemed to be the best outlet to Git ‘Er Dunn! Agendas are like assholes. Everybody has one but some people that can fulfill the malicious ones the easiest are usually assholes.

This most recent episode was well played. He claimed he was a “former” man of God, a “former” publisher and he was dying. This said three things to me right up front without him ever singing a word of his own sincerity. He would never lie to me, he had the right contacts and I shouldn’t doubt his intentions because a dying man doesn’t waste his time on frivolity. He liked my writing. He wanted to work with me to get some things published, however…and this is where the agenda comes into play…the stuff he was most interested in had to be kept under wraps until he could edit it for publishing. After a lengthy phone call with him I decided to follow his instructions to the letter and hid some of my best writing away from the public just like he suggested. He sounded legit to me.  Continue reading